People who test you!

I’ve been dealing with a certain someone who’s been taking my kindness for granted, and I’ve had enough. I’ve recently challenged myself to not talk about others and show love to everyone.. Anyone who knows me KNOWS how hot headed I can get, and that this is truly challenging for me when I’m at my boiling point. With that said, I had been really sticking to it and feeling really good about keeping my cool. I had stopped cursing people off while driving.. that I didn’t get pissed if someone didn’t say “thank you” as I held the door.. that I’ve avoided gossiping (as much as humanly possible but obviously I’m not Mother Theresa)..

What did I notice? I wasn’t wasting all of my energy on OTHER people. I felt good. I actually felt peaceful driving.. Ok, I did slip today, someone almost veered me and my daughter off the road and I DID curse but much to my surprise, it was a 2 second ordeal and I didn’t stay angry. It’s working! All in all, I’ve felt more focused on my actual dilemmas and haven’t wasted energy outwardly, without purpose.

BUT, but but but.. this one person has been pushing buttons and testing my limits. I strongly believe some people mistake kindness for stupidity. For the past 48 hrs I’ve been battling “good vs evil” in my mind. Old Dai would have aggressively put that person in their place and left it at that. While this new Dai was trying to have patience and be kind/understanding. I think I did the right thing, but I was also not going to let this continue. ENOUGH! I was so caught up in being a good person, that I didn’t realize I was learning another lesson: “Be careful who you save, you could be interrupting their Karma.” – My daughter actually posted that on her Instagram account last night, and it was like a light bulb! Sometimes you need to deliver the lesson to others! This person has to go through a very difficult situation right now, which wouldn’t have happened if my humanity wasn’t tested and tested over and over. No more taking advantage of people who treat you with decency. I hope that message gets across clearly. If it doesn’t, there will be a lot more learning to do on their end.

My lesson? You can be a GOOD person & still allow yourself to take a “harsh” action if it’s doing you damage. There is no rule against loving people but not taking any shit! For so long I was under the impression that I had to be “one or the other.” I can be both – we are all Yin and Yang. There needs to be balance. I used to think I had to be tough all the time in order to get respect, and that never did me any good either. On the contrary, if being good means taking crap from people, your life is going to be miserable. BALANCE.

Have enough love for others to stay kind, honest, humble, and respectful.. but enough love for YOURSELF to take no SH!t.

XoXo

Dai