Dump the Head Trash!

I LOVE October! It represents Fall activities, family, togetherness, the beginning of “cozy” season, and the countdown to my favorite holidays! Yes, I am also that “pumpkin spice everything” girl.. currently enjoying my Dunkin Iced Coffee with 2 pumps Pumpkin Spice LOL 🙂

I titled this post, “The calm during the storm” because I am proud of who I’ve been this past month; staying calm, patient, and positive during a really bad storm. What has kept me going is the fact that no-matter what, I have SO MUCH to be thankful for. This is something I might have been repeating, but that’s just how IMPORTANT it is to keep that momentum of gratefulness going. The feeling of “I already have it all” has been a saving grace for me.. which I owe to Abraham-Hicks, Gabby Bernstein, Kathrin Zenkina, etc.. It is a human necessity to inform the mind and search for help when you want to better your current situation – whatever it may be.

This Thursday I am especially THANKFUL FOR: Alignment! I feel a shift within me and it feels empowering. Alignment basically means you’re an energetic match for whatever it is you want. You are relaxed, happy and there is just that certainty it’s coming.

I have aligned myself by focusing on what I want, while being extremely grateful of what I already have, and feeling at peace. A fun little trick to focus on what you want is to create a vision board.

On October 1st I posted a “virtual vision board” on my Instagram account (bambi_227). I have to admit that there is massive POWER in declaring your intentions. When you let the Universe know “this is what I want“, it HAS to deliver as long as you are aligned with the positive thoughts and actions behind it. My Little vision board includes some things I want to make sure I accomplish this month:

1. New Customer – I am without a doubt finding a new customer this month. I must add, the same day I posted this I received a lead 🙂
2. Do what I love – I will continue to ENJOY writing and not give up on it because others don’t support it, agree with it, like it, etc..
3. Scope out all high-schools – My daughter has been in private school since 1st grade. She wants to go to Public school for High-school in Sept 2020. I am open to whatever she wants to do, but she will make her decision after we visit all the schools that are open for her. This takes a lot of time & energy – that’s why its on the board!
4. Read 4 books – I committed to reading 4 books per month. So far I am mid-way through Gabby Bernstein’s “Super Attractor” – Highly Recommend!
5. Abraham-Hicks Workshop – This is the only month that these workshops are anywhere local to me. Due to the weekends being jam packed with High-school open houses, my only option is October 12th in Greenwich, CT.. it’s almost 2 hrs away for me but I NEED to go.
6. Family Fall activity – preferably pumpkin related! 🙂 Last year we were SO SO SO busy all of October and November, we never ended up spending a nice Fall day as a family! I do not want that to happen again.. the calendar is already pretty full.. so this being on my vision board will ignite my fire to MAKE SURE we do!
7. Meditate daily – Day 3 going strong! I need guided meditation for now. Hopefully one day I will be able to Zen out without extra help. For now, this is doing the trick and it makes me feel AMAZING!

Hope you like my ideas! Do you have a vision board? Do you have any cool ideas I can incorporate vision boards for my own goals? I’d love to know what others do to get their butts into overdrive! 🙂

XoXo

Dai

Today I had a hard time figuring out what to write about. It seems like I can’t get out of my head all of the things I want to accomplish before the end of 2019! I guess this is a good time to analyze the year. We are 75% done but we still have 25% left to end it with a bang! Maybe your year has been amazing and that’s awesome.. but you could still have more amazing! On the other hand, maybe this year hasn’t been that easy (insert girl with hand up emoji here!).

So 3 months… 3 months to make it right (and continue forward of course). A couple months ago I began this journey, of which I don’t really have a clear name for.. I guess I could call it my “abundance journey”. By abundance I don’t only mean financial; as I have learned recently that abundance really truly lives inside the word JOY. 2 months ago I can honestly say I was miserable, filled with fear, and dreading each new day. The root of all that negativity was my lack of money or so I thought. Turns out, I just needed to change my mentality. When I began to filter my mind with books, podcast, youtube, and affirmations, I really started to realize where HAPPINESS comes from. I’m not going to sugar coat this and say that magically all of my financial problems disappeared.. in fact, they’re the same.. BUT, I wake up grateful that TODAY I have a home, TODAY I have a car, TODAY my family can eat, TODAY I can fill my tank with gas, TODAY I am alive. Feeling so much gratitude helps me wake up and see that Life is SO WORTH IT. This MASSIVE mountain I’ve been struggling to climb to the top of, hasn’t killed me yet! Aside from waking up grateful I also wake up knowing that someway, somehow this will all get better. God has a plan for me and I am doing as much as I could from my end to follow his lead and I know he will reward me.

With that said, I came up with 3 things I want to accomplish before the end of 2019:

1. Complete a course to better my business – I already signed up for an online course that lasts 6 weeks and starts Saturday the 5th.
2. Find a new client – I fear rejection big time (I’m working on it!) so for me, going out and exposing myself to potential “No’s” is a very hard thing to do. I limit my marketing due to this reason. Time for a change!
3. Payoff 2 credit cards – May seem like a simple task to some, but this is a very difficult thing for me considering my situation. I am 100% ready to CHANGE my money mindset, and make shit happen!

I will absolutely check back in with new posts as I ACCOMPLISH these goals!

What goals have you wanted to put into writing and hold yourself accountable for? What can you do to better your life and feel more fulfilled and IN CHARGE of your destiny?

OR, have you manifested goals into your reality? Any interesting stories?

PLEASE SHARE 🙂

XoXo

Dai

Did you ever stop and think how your daily behavior shapes your world? I had not been putting much thought into any of my actions and emotions for a while. Sometimes it’s easy to put the blame on “life” or certain situations that arise, yet “life” and such situations pretty much manifest through our own actions, thoughts, and words. Coming to reality with one’s self is a pretty extraordinary feeling. There are so many things that make you feel uncomfortable but at the same time it’s so rewarding. I believe we must be a work in progress for our whole lives. Always searching for ways to better ourselves. Accepting our flaws, faults, and weaknesses is what in the end, makes us powerful.

I recently learned that there are 6 major driving forces, or NEEDS, for all of us humans. Each one has it’s powers and it’s kryptonite. The goal is to identify which need is pulling us, learning how to focus it in the direction of power, and work on balancing the rest of them. So here goes, the 6 Human Driving Forces:

1. Certainty – you search for comfort and certainty in your life. For example, you like routines because you always know what to expect and nothing surprises you. Power: You can stick to daily tasks and you don’t get bored. kryptonite: you don’t handle change well and are scared of takings risks. You can easily become “lazy” or unmotivated.
2. Uncertainty – This is the complete opposite. You need variety in your life in order to avoid boredom and predictability. Power: You welcome any situation with open arms and risks are adventurous. Kryptonite: You have a hard time following rules.
3. Significance – you strive to feel significant, or important, in other people’s eyes. You goal is to create a sense of identity. Power: you are determined to find your sense of purpose and achieve your goals. Kryptonite: Progress can be equal to what others think about you.
4. Connection – you yearn to be connected to people. You need to give love, be loved, and belong. Power: Love = Happiness. Kryptonite: Not feeling loved can make you feel unworthy.
5. Growth – you strive to constantly learn something new, experience new things, level up in business, or grow mentally/emotionally/spiritually. Power: your ambition keeps you striving and doesn’t let you quit. Kryptonite: getting too overwhelmed by doing too much and not enjoying the process until you “make it”.
6. Contribution – you need to contribute to the community. This force is all about adding value to other people’s lives. Power: what goes around comes around. You’re vibration is about giving therefore you receive in return. Kryptonite: you put yourself last and forget to tend to your own needs.

My driving force has always been CERTAINTY. I realized that instead of using my needs in a powerful way, I was actually operating completely off KRYPTONITE mode! I never liked it when life got tough. I normally situated myself in the most comfortable experiences. In my mind I wanted more, (Growth force), but physically I acted on Certainty. I let time pass, and felt that routines made me happy when in the end it was just an excuse to be lazy and depend on others. Yes, that’s me telling it like it is. If you can’t face yourself you will never GROW. At this point I’m focused on the Growth force but I will not allow myself to do TOO MUCH and get overwhelmed. If I do that, I will end up quitting.

Our brains are literally STUFFED with thoughts, concepts, information, memories, traumas, images, etc that have created the person we are today.

Why not reach in and eliminate the things that harm us and substitute them with ones that bring us joy?

Check out Tony Robbins 6 Human Needs in Detail:

Comments? Opinions?

Till next time..

XoXo

Dai

I had mentioned in my book recommendation post that I would make a separate one with my favorite YouTubers. If you find it difficult to sit and read, you would really benefit from tuning onto any of these YouTube channels on your computer, phone, or in the car. These people have a magnificent way of portraying their message and truly planting seeds in one’s brain:

1. Abraham Hicks – This lady is amazing. She is hysterical, a little nutty (which I love), and has totally mastered how to portray the Law of Attraction with the best Metaphors! I listen to her daily and have repeated certain videos several times because they are PACKED with bits of useful leads. She has drawn a very clear picture in my brain, of what a Vortex is.. Listen to her to find out! link: https://www.youtube.com/user/AbrahamHicks
2. Eric Ho/Master Sri Akarshana – When I first started watching his videos he referred to himself as Eric Ho which is his actual name, but as he continued practicing meditation techniques with Yogis in the Himalayas he became; Master Sri Akarshana. Eric is know as the “Yogi with a Lamborghini” LOL. He has an immense sense of spirituality combined with a MASTERY of the Law of Attraction. I learned how to BREATHE during tough situations via his guided videos. It’s crazy how a simple breathing exercise can alter your mood/thoughts/energy within seconds! Link: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCZzuauSCw9aXx-tUB-E7Tfw
3. Manifestation Babe – She’s just cool because she literally went from sleeping on her Grandmother’s couch and decided she would commit to mastering the Law of Attraction within a year to opening an Instagram account and went from 0 to 100; proving that the Law works if you BELIEVE it’s possible. She now writes books, has a popular podcast, hold’s coaching classes for ladies in business, and lives her dream life – all within 2 years! Link: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCrL1BRGHkRVibo0a-VCQ6Yg
4. Louise Hay – Her meditations are really relaxing. If you don’t know where to start as far as meditating, look her up! Also, she wrote the book “You Can Heal Your Life” which I received as a gift from my Mother back in 1999. This book got me through a moment where I suffered from severe anxiety & phobias. I will talk more about that later but I assure you it’s also a great “beginner” book if you need some guidance and don’t know what to read first. Link: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCEcGxk2_r6e0aSV_60qwmaA
5. Mel Robbins – As mentioned in my book post, she is the reason I wake up with a positive mind every morning. Yes, sometimes it’s REALLY FREAKING HARD, but, “5,4,3,2,1 – Do it anyway“.. and that’s how I roll out of bed. It’s always been a struggle for me to wake up early and start the day off with excitement and a positive mind because I immediately used to think of the 1,000 issues or things that could go wrong.. basically expecting disaster. Sounds horrendous, right? Unfortunately, that mentality is normal for more people than you’d think. No-matter how your mind functions, if you want to change it, you CAN.. and that is exactly what Mel Robbins has taught me. Link: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCk2U-Oqn7RXf-ydPqfSxG5g
6. Proctor Gallagher Institute – Bob Proctor is the founder and came up with the movie “The Secret” where for myself, was the first time I ever even heard of The Law of Attraction, back in 2007. I love how he incorporated business coaching and success tips into this “mind over matter” approach. He 110% understands the dynamics of successful businesses but also portrays how it stems from our thoughts, confidence, and beliefs. He is 85 yrs old now, worth $20 million – Age is Wisdom! Link: https://www.youtube.com/user/BobProctorTV
7. Tony Robbins – all I can say, is that if someone can be worth $500 million dollars and had no education past high school, he is worth listening to! He is a business and life coach. His seminars get sold out every time by THOUSANDS. I will one day be attending one of his seminars, till then, YouTube and his books! Link: https://www.youtube.com/user/TonyRobbinsLive/featured

With all of that said, I must admit I still have a LONG journey ahead of me.. I am considered to be a “hopeful resistor” which basically means I live with the thought that everything can be manifested, yet I resist as soon as I meet with struggle.. I am working on all of this, DAILY, hence my research and constant affirmations. I like to consider myself a work in progress because I believe there is a lot of value within me and it must be released.

Any thoughts? Comments? Recommendations? Comment below! & Subscribe!

XoXo

Dai

I STRONGLY believe that everyone needs to read books.. especially books that make you feel like you are learning ways to better yourself. If you don’t like to read about self help or The law of attraction like I do, you could still read about a certain trade, hobby, business, etc.. ANYTHING that teaches you something or sparks new thoughts in your mind, makes you more valuable in life. Life is all about value. We don’t necessarily get paid for our time more than we do our value. Expanding your mind, beliefs, or talents provides SO much power to your existence. With that said, here is a list of my top 4 books that have helped me overcome a lot of self-doubt and uncertainty:

1. The Secret by Rhonda Byrne – This was my first Law of Attraction book. It was based off the Gospel of Matthew:  Matthew 21:22: “And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive.” I must admit that as a newbie to the whole idea, after I read the book I thought I could just want something and “think” it into existence, without necessarily clearing out any of my mental blockages. The mind has a conscious and a sub-conscious. If BOTH aren’t “treated” then the Law of Attraction will make you feel frustrated and easily defeated. With that said, it is a great introduction to the whole concept, and if I had continued to research the ideas, I would have had a different experience. I still thank this book for coming into my life.
2. The Power of I AM by Joel Osteen – This one made me realize how often I used the words I AM in a negative connotation. When I read this book I received a little light bulb moment; The Law of Attraction had not been working because although I was trying to THINK positive thoughts, I outwardly spoke words which contradicted everything else. This book also brought prayer into my life. I realized that for a long time I had forgotten to pray. Joel mentions a lot of Bible verses and I must admit I am not a church goer nor do I believe in only ONE Religion.. BUT, the references to God made me Pray and as I started to Pray I felt better! I realized that God started sending me signs. To this day I mention quite often, “God talks to me“.. or, “God talked to me today” because the communication I receive is SO evident. When I listen, I hear my messages. The power of I AM made me observe my spoken words and brought me closer to God which as a result, made me feel optimistic.. and that’s a step in the right direction!
3. *Wishes Fulfilled: Mastering the Art of Manifesting by Dr. Wayne Dyer – This one was my FAVORITe. This book was a turning point for me. Let me start off by saying that I had gotten the idea of purchasing a home when my sister-in-law mentioned to me that even if my credit wasn’t great and we didn’t have ANY money for a down payment, that starting to look or purchasing a fixer upper would be a step up for us. We were living in a very tiny house which was suffocating us. We began by meeting with a mortgage company to see what we would get approved for. They approved us for $190k max. The area we wanted to move to at the time didn’t have anything in that price range. I decided to start reading this book with hope that my negative mindset would shift again (YES, I need regular “program updating” to stay positive – I’ve accepted that!). I read the book in about a week, made a vision board, and decided that we were going to purchase a home to OUR LIKING. Our current agent suggested we reach out to another mortgage company and ask them what we would be approved for “just to compare”. Well, within a few weeks of being approved for $190k (max) we were approved for $500k. Same credit, same money in the bank, same $0 for down payment (at the time). You know what was different? Our Vibration – our mindset. The Law of Attraction really does work. Hence, why this was my favorite book. I recommend it. ANYTHING you want is possible.
4. Take Control of Your Life by Mel Robbins – (audio book). So, as I had mentioned in my first post I believe, I had been all about the law of attraction, got my home which is what I really wanted at the time, and then I got comfortable. I stopped “practicing“. This past year I had been completely ignoring my daily train of thought and fell into negativity overdrive. Things got from bad to worse with the business. It was then that I decided I NEEDED to go back to what makes me feel good. I reached out to a friend who suggested this audio book. I listened to it every morning after I dropped my daughter off at school or whenever I had a longer commute. THIS LADY KNOWS HER STUFF! I began taking action because of her and realized that I am so much more than all the BS around me. The Law of Attraction doesn’t take so much hard physical effort but it does take MENTAL effort. Daily. Without fail. Once your mind starts to focus and you analyze yourself, you realize what it is you have to PHYSICALLY do. By changing my mentality I began to take more control of my current situations. I start my days Monday through Friday like this thanks to Mel: alarm goes off and I think, “5, 4, 3, 2, 1 – Make it happen.” As soon as my eyes open I verbally say 5 things I am grateful for, and I am up. I am not going to lie, that ONE minute in the morning has changed my day SO drastically!! It’s insane how thoughts make feelings and feelings manifest outwardly. This is definitely an audio book that EVERYONE could benefit from. I promise.

I am currently reading THE VORTEX by Esther and Jerry Hicks. I will absolutely have some fun interesting things to mention about this one! Aside from these 4 books, I’ve been listening to a lot on YouTube. One of my next posts will be about my favorite YouTube subscriptions.

I’d love to know if anyone has read these? What are your thoughts/comments? Also, do you have any recommendations for me?

XoXo

Dai

I’ve been having a hard time with this one these past couple of days. Did you ever commit to something with full enthusiasm and after a while of really trying, you aren’t seeing the results? I’ll be honest as I promised from the start of this blog, this is me today. I’ve felt like I was on a high for a while and right now I’m feeling a little bit at a let down. It feels as if I’ve taken steps forward yet things happen to make me take steps backwards. I’m not gonna lie, I’m pissed LOL.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not giving up on my goals but it would be nice if things started to shift already! I know God hears me.. I know the Universe has my back.. I know the power is within me to achieve my goals.. and I know I must be grateful throughout the whole process. Maybe I need to work on my patience and continue to block out all negative thoughts.

“The day you plant the seed, is not the day you eat the fruit!”

I came across this quote a few minutes ago, and I wanted to share it. It reminded me that the more you sit and wait for things to happen, you are actually creating more of a “waiting period”. Whatever feeling is going through you strongly, will vibrate outwardly and manifest itself even stronger. So, makes sense.. I’m waiting for things to shift therefore I’m creating a LONGER waiting time. If you plant a seed you KNOW the tree will grow if you nourish it. It is not an overnight process, but it grows and when it does, the fruit is delicious.

I definitely planted a seed inside myself and I’ve been watering it daily with books, meditation, and positive self talk. I HAVE to trust the process because before I know it, just like a tree, I will grow..

XoXo

Dai

Lately I’ve been making all sorts of bucket lists.. since hubby doesn’t have his passport yet 🤷🏼‍♀️, I started with a list of places I NEED to see/go to nationally, within the next year or so:

1. Sedona, AZ – specifically for the Vortexes! If I could sit on top of one of those huge rocks and meditate, I’d be in my glory 🤩

2. Grand Canyon, AZ – I figure 1 & 2 will be done in one travel, considering they are only a drive away from eachother. Imagine that sunset! 🤯

3. Maui, Hawaii – aside from being beautiful & considered to be such a HAPPY island, it’s also where one of my favorite authors lived (Dr. Wayne Dyer). I’d love to see what inspired him daily. 🌺

4. Grizzly & Wolf Discovery Center, MT – Because I LOVE Wolves!! I’d love to see them in their most natural environment 😍

5. Yosemite National Park, CA – without a doubt, there will always be some place in California that will be on my bucket list! No matter how many times I go, this state’s beauty leaves me speechless. My favorite state in the USA! 🌴

Please comment below if you have been to any of these 5 gorgeous places.. OR if you have some other beautiful recommendations for me to add to my bucket list!

XoXo

Dai

As I was driving into NYC on Wednesday, I did a lot of thinking.. mostly about myself. I really love having breakthrough moments when I realize how I tend to get in my own way towards any goal. The drive was long enough for me to listen to a long podcast and fully delve into my brain. I came to 2 conclusions holding me back for what I believe, most of my adult life.

1. I never showed MYSELF love & compassion.
2. I convinced myself I wasn’t “smart” enough to truly succeed on my own.

So, I decided to give myself a LOVING pep talk.. I spoke out-loud about how much I love myself and admire that DESPITE all of the mental/emotional struggles I’ve gone through, I’m still a pretty good human. I also want to keep improving who I am and play out my role in this world. How could I not love that person? How could I not respect her? Why have I been letting her go in multiple ways? Doesn’t a person like that deserve to be treated with care and gratitude? Just because it’s “only me” doesn’t mean I can’t provide myself with all of those feelings. As I came to that realization, I INSTANTLY felt amazing. The whole day that proceeded was amazing as well. I walked around NYC with a different perspective. First of all, it was over 90 degrees. On most occasions when I am sweaty in public I get really self conscious.. to the point where I’ve actually avoided so many events and situations. Why? Who the hell cares?! I thought back to so many times I’ve limited myself because I was worried about what others thought. All of that did nothing for me. If I truly love myself NO ONE ELSE’S opinion matters. I walked in NYC, sorta sweaty, and I loved it LOL. I attended a recording of an amazing author, Mel Robbins. I met some pretty cool people.. an angel channel-er (I hope that’s the correct term) and a woman who dedicates herself to woman in business. I actually enjoyed a day dedicated to myself. I needed that.. 🙂

I had been struggling for a while with the insecurity of not being “smart enough” to accomplish my goals. I believe the moment I accepted to love myself fully, also made me accept that although I can’t control how smart I am, I can control how hard I work. In the end, how hard you work can determine how smart you GET. Wow! All this time I’ve been convincing myself that I am not smart enough to write a book.. I am not smart enough to run a business on my own forever.. I am not smart enough to represent a company to an important customer and keep rising.. so much inner head talk just doing me dirty. So, maybe I need to brush up on my writing skills, but taking a writing course and letting loose on my blog can help! Maybe I’m just scaring myself with the whole “business” thing and I just need to take baby steps.. forever is really a day at a time, right? Maybe I need to keep going out and taking all the “NO’s” as fuel until I find a big client who says “YES”.

In the end, my life is what I make of it. I can sit and mope.. hate myself.. want to lose weight or have perfect skin.. but, nothing changes if nothing changes. Step 1, love myself. Step 2, take action. Step 3, don’t give up when you fail. Step 4, keep going.. and so on and so on… JUST ONE DAY AT A TIME.

ANYTHING you work hard for will ALWAYS pay off.. at the PERFECT time.

XoXo

Dai

I’ve been dealing with a certain someone who’s been taking my kindness for granted, and I’ve had enough. I’ve recently challenged myself to not talk about others and show love to everyone.. Anyone who knows me KNOWS how hot headed I can get, and that this is truly challenging for me when I’m at my boiling point. With that said, I had been really sticking to it and feeling really good about keeping my cool. I had stopped cursing people off while driving.. that I didn’t get pissed if someone didn’t say “thank you” as I held the door.. that I’ve avoided gossiping (as much as humanly possible but obviously I’m not Mother Theresa)..

What did I notice? I wasn’t wasting all of my energy on OTHER people. I felt good. I actually felt peaceful driving.. Ok, I did slip today, someone almost veered me and my daughter off the road and I DID curse but much to my surprise, it was a 2 second ordeal and I didn’t stay angry. It’s working! All in all, I’ve felt more focused on my actual dilemmas and haven’t wasted energy outwardly, without purpose.

BUT, but but but.. this one person has been pushing buttons and testing my limits. I strongly believe some people mistake kindness for stupidity. For the past 48 hrs I’ve been battling “good vs evil” in my mind. Old Dai would have aggressively put that person in their place and left it at that. While this new Dai was trying to have patience and be kind/understanding. I think I did the right thing, but I was also not going to let this continue. ENOUGH! I was so caught up in being a good person, that I didn’t realize I was learning another lesson: “Be careful who you save, you could be interrupting their Karma.” – My daughter actually posted that on her Instagram account last night, and it was like a light bulb! Sometimes you need to deliver the lesson to others! This person has to go through a very difficult situation right now, which wouldn’t have happened if my humanity wasn’t tested and tested over and over. No more taking advantage of people who treat you with decency. I hope that message gets across clearly. If it doesn’t, there will be a lot more learning to do on their end.

My lesson? You can be a GOOD person & still allow yourself to take a “harsh” action if it’s doing you damage. There is no rule against loving people but not taking any shit! For so long I was under the impression that I had to be “one or the other.” I can be both – we are all Yin and Yang. There needs to be balance. I used to think I had to be tough all the time in order to get respect, and that never did me any good either. On the contrary, if being good means taking crap from people, your life is going to be miserable. BALANCE.

Have enough love for others to stay kind, honest, humble, and respectful.. but enough love for YOURSELF to take no SH!t.

XoXo

Dai

When is enough, enough? Recently I learned a new lesson (as if life hasn’t sent me enough of those already! lol). I realized that my mind was always focused on wanting bigger and better.

About 3 years ago, we decided we really wanted to buy a house. I put all of my focus and determination into visualizing us in our new home. During this time I did a lot of positive reading, vision boards, and daily walks with mental focus on my dream. So it happened, a year to the date we bought our first house. I was happy.. I was thankful.. I felt accomplished. I got what I wanted, so now I didn’t have to spend all this time reading, visualizing, focusing on KEEPING what I had received from the universe. I got lazy. I got comfortable. Business was booming. Money was so easily being acquired, and I found myself thinking “I want more“. What at first had been a dream accomplished, quickly turned into and uneasy feeling of not enough.

If someone complimented my home or congratulated me, I would dim the value and respond “Oh yea thanks it’s nice, but it’s too small.” I would hear my inner voice say to me “You are being an ungrateful brat! Do you realize how many people would want what you have?” but I quickly disregarded that voice and answered back “Daianna you are ambitious you want more there is nothing wrong with that!”. For quite a while I allowed my brain to focus on everything I DIDN’T have, rather than everything I DID have. If I felt that business was going great I would immediately say to myself “but I’m not rich yet!”. As soon as that inner voice responded to me, I felt like nothing that surrounded me was ENOUGH.

You know what happened? I entered the point where my lesson had to be learned. The universe said, “Oh it’s time to learn.. now!”.

I began to have problems with work.. some customers closed down while others began to dwindle their imports (thanks to the China tariffs!). My lesson had begun and I hadn’t noticed yet. I was still stuck on bigger and better. Soon after it started taking a toll on my finances directly. “Oh shit!” Am I going to lose my house? Am I going to lose my business? All of a sudden I realized how much I LOVED everything I had. Funny how the brain works, huh? I realized what was happening. My inner voice had trapped me into a web of “not enough” and guess what? That’t exactly what I created.. NOT ENOUGH.

I MADE this happen. I basically asked for it, spelled it out, pronounced it every which way, and put it into the Universe. If I didn’t have enough, than that’s exactly what I would begin to experience.. and so I experienced.

It takes a lot to own up to our mistakes.. especially to be raw and honest. I am extremely GRATEFUL for this experience. I am grateful for the recent hardships. I am thankful for this lesson. I learned the true meaning of GRATITUDE. I am back on track. It’s not wrong to want something, it’s wrong to not love what you have in the meantime. I CAN have it all if I love all I have. That is the whole gist of Gratitude. As mentioned in my previous post, it is now time for action. With a thankful heart I commence this “homework” assigned to me with open arms.

XoXo

Dai