Gratitude

When is enough, enough? Recently I learned a new lesson (as if life hasn’t sent me enough of those already! lol). I realized that my mind was always focused on wanting bigger and better.

About 3 years ago, we decided we really wanted to buy a house. I put all of my focus and determination into visualizing us in our new home. During this time I did a lot of positive reading, vision boards, and daily walks with mental focus on my dream. So it happened, a year to the date we bought our first house. I was happy.. I was thankful.. I felt accomplished. I got what I wanted, so now I didn’t have to spend all this time reading, visualizing, focusing on KEEPING what I had received from the universe. I got lazy. I got comfortable. Business was booming. Money was so easily being acquired, and I found myself thinking “I want more“. What at first had been a dream accomplished, quickly turned into and uneasy feeling of not enough.

If someone complimented my home or congratulated me, I would dim the value and respond “Oh yea thanks it’s nice, but it’s too small.” I would hear my inner voice say to me “You are being an ungrateful brat! Do you realize how many people would want what you have?” but I quickly disregarded that voice and answered back “Daianna you are ambitious you want more there is nothing wrong with that!”. For quite a while I allowed my brain to focus on everything I DIDN’T have, rather than everything I DID have. If I felt that business was going great I would immediately say to myself “but I’m not rich yet!”. As soon as that inner voice responded to me, I felt like nothing that surrounded me was ENOUGH.

You know what happened? I entered the point where my lesson had to be learned. The universe said, “Oh it’s time to learn.. now!”.

I began to have problems with work.. some customers closed down while others began to dwindle their imports (thanks to the China tariffs!). My lesson had begun and I hadn’t noticed yet. I was still stuck on bigger and better. Soon after it started taking a toll on my finances directly. “Oh shit!” Am I going to lose my house? Am I going to lose my business? All of a sudden I realized how much I LOVED everything I had. Funny how the brain works, huh? I realized what was happening. My inner voice had trapped me into a web of “not enough” and guess what? That’t exactly what I created.. NOT ENOUGH.

I MADE this happen. I basically asked for it, spelled it out, pronounced it every which way, and put it into the Universe. If I didn’t have enough, than that’s exactly what I would begin to experience.. and so I experienced.

It takes a lot to own up to our mistakes.. especially to be raw and honest. I am extremely GRATEFUL for this experience. I am grateful for the recent hardships. I am thankful for this lesson. I learned the true meaning of GRATITUDE. I am back on track. It’s not wrong to want something, it’s wrong to not love what you have in the meantime. I CAN have it all if I love all I have. That is the whole gist of Gratitude. As mentioned in my previous post, it is now time for action. With a thankful heart I commence this “homework” assigned to me with open arms.

XoXo

Dai