Dump the Head Trash!

This past year has felt like a relentless storm, battering my life with one challenge after another. I try to view it through a more positive lens, but the truth is, it has been excruciatingly hard. Yet, amidst the chaos and heartbreak, I’ve found glimmers of resilience, strength, and unexpected gratitude.

A year ago, my world turned upside down when my daughter Malena was involved in a horrific car accident. The collision resulted in two fatalities, and though she survived, she wasn’t left unscathed. Every bone on the right side of her face was fractured, requiring a complete nasal reconstruction surgery and a lengthy recovery period. Malena faced not only physical pain but also the heavy burden of PTSD and a permanent impact on her eyesight. Watching her endure such trauma was heart-wrenching, but it also highlighted her incredible strength and our unwavering support for each other. 

Not long after Malena’s accident, my family was dealt another blow. My mother was diagnosed with breast cancer, setting us on a grueling path of chemotherapy, biopsies, and constant trips to her doctors and surgeons, all an hour away from home. The endless medical appointments, coupled with witnessing her pain and suffering, were almost unbearable. However, through this ordeal, we grew closer than ever. It became painfully clear how much I still needed my mother and how much she needed my support. This realization forged a bond that nothing could break, reinforcing the depths of our shared resilience.

As if these challenges weren’t enough, my father, battling severe alcoholism, suffered a tragic fall that resulted in two brain bleeds and permanent brain damage.  Every day I carry the image of him laying on the ground alone all night. The aftermath was devastating—he couldn’t walk, struggled to understand us, and relied on a feeding tube for months.  Having a “normal” dad one day, and a dad riddled with dementia 24 hrs later, was hard to grasp.  He was placed in a nursing home in order to have care 24/7.  The days leading up to his passing from aspiration pneumonia were a blur of sorrow and helplessness. I spent three days by his side, holding his hand and cherishing our final moments together. His death on May 6th left me in a state of emotional limbo, caught between happiness and sadness, positivity and negativity. It was a profound reminder of the fragility of life and the importance of treasuring every moment with our loved ones.

Adding to the turmoil, my business has been facing financial struggles.  Sometimes the stress is unbearable, and I tend to “eat my feelings”.  Thats definitely taken a toll on my body because yesterday I was diagnosed with diabetes and hyperkalemia. The weight of these health issues feels like the final straw in an already overwhelming year. Despite these setbacks, I am determined to find a way forward. I recognize that all these trials, as painful as they are, carry lessons and gifts. They have taught me about the strength I never knew I had, the importance of self-care, and the value of unwavering support from those around me.

Looking ahead, I am filled with a mix of nervousness and hope. I yearn to use the coming year to heal, to flourish, and to transform the pain into growth. This year from hell has tested me in unimaginable ways, but it has also revealed the depths of my resilience and the enduring power of gratitude. I am grateful for the lessons learned and the love that has sustained me. As I step into the future, I do so with a heart full of hope and a spirit ready to embrace the light, no matter how faint it may seem.

Self-honesty is a powerful compass in navigating life’s complexities, and I was reminded of this just today. After slacking on something I had committed to, a friend told me, “Self-honesty is a good compass.” This simple yet profound statement struck a chord with me, and I’m still processing it, living through the lesson.

Being honest with ourselves isn’t easy. It means looking in the mirror and acknowledging our strengths, weaknesses, desires, and motivations without flinching. It’s about accepting the parts of ourselves we’d rather hide or ignore. This kind of honesty isn’t about self-criticism but about understanding and growth.

Today, I started to realize how self-honesty brings clarity. Decisions become easier when I align them with my true values and goals rather than what I think others expect of me. Facing my procrastination and avoidance head-on feels promising. It’s uncomfortable, but it’s also empowering.

Emotionally, self-honesty is already proving to be a game-changer. By facing my feelings directly, I will begin to address issues more effectively. Admitting to myself that I’m feeling overwhelmed or uncertain allows me to seek the help and support I need. This realization has the potential to lift a weight off my shoulders.

In relationships, being honest about my needs and boundaries fosters deeper connections. When I communicate openly, my relationships feel more authentic and fulfilling. It’s not easy to be vulnerable, but it’s attracting people who value and understand me, creating a supportive network.

Self-honesty also means taking responsibility for my actions. Recognizing where I’ve succeeded and where I’ve fallen short helps me learn and grow. It’s not about dwelling on mistakes but about understanding them and doing better next time.

Reflecting on my friend’s advice today, I see how self-honesty truly is a compass. It guides us to live authentically, making decisions that reflect our true selves. By embracing who we are, flaws and all, we can navigate life’s journey with greater confidence and integrity. I’m still living through this lesson, but I can already feel its profound impact.

Walking out of Labcorp, I found myself giggling at a familiar ritual: sending a picture of my band-aid after getting bloodwork done. This small act was a tradition started by my dad years ago, a quirky way for us to connect after medical appointments. Despite us never using band-aids at home (because he saw them as a weakness), he insisted on this ritual, making it a staple in our family.

As I left the building, the habit of snapping a picture to send to my dad brought a smile to my face. But that smile quickly faded as I was hit with the stark reality that he’s no longer here. The wave of emotion was immediate and overwhelming, bringing tears to my eyes as I walked to my car. It’s moments like these that highlight the depth of our connections and the enduring presence of loved ones in our daily lives, even after they’re gone.

Grief is complex, often marked by unexpected reminders and the ache of absence in ordinary routines. The sudden realization that I could no longer send that picture to my dad was a punch to the gut, another daily reminder of the void his passing has left. Seeking solace, I sent the band-aid picture to my husband instead, keeping the tradition alive and finding comfort in his support.

This experience made me reflect on the importance of small rituals and how they help us navigate grief. Traditions connect us to our loved ones and provide continuity and comfort. Honoring these rituals keeps their spirit alive and helps us find new ways to connect and remember. Grief is not about letting go but finding a new way to hold on and celebrate the enduring impact of those we’ve lost.

Hello world, its been a whirlwind!

I’m sure for everyone just as myself, these past 2 yrs have been INTENSE. 2020 & 2021 came strong! The collage of emotions and events that I have felt/gone through make me think, “It’s been JUST 2 years?!” lol.. at the same time I turn around and think “Holy shit 2 yrs passed?” It’s like the mind thinks time flew but the heart feels like it dragged. Goes to show how polarized we really are as human beings.

Speaking of polarized, this time for me has been the absolute worst and the absolute best. Crazy! As a collective, I think us humans are going through a time of polarity in order to show us our deepest shadows and our highest virtues. If we learn, we grow. If we grow, we heal. If we heal, we manifest our dreams. The issue is when we stop right at the learning mark. By learning I’m referring to taking difficult situations and truly witnessing ourselves.. the dark parts.. the shameful parts.. the parts we don’t even realize are there because we are so stuck observing others or feeling self pity. When we witness those parts we LEARN more about ourselves and we begin to heal. Everyone needs healing to some degree because we all have shadows. No, we are not damaged goods that need healing in order to begin to feel worthy. We are beautiful souls that simply need healing to remove the clutter that has been imposed into our psyche as children. That clutter once witnessed and released from the sub-conscious, raises our awareness to why we do/think/feel certain things. We begin to take responsibility for our own lives while tending to the internal child who was not seen for a long time.

Lets start 2022 by witnessing ourselves, our shadows, and our light, and choosing what we want to keep in order to manifest our dream lives..

If any of this resonates and if you’d like to hear more about the DEEP inner work I’ve been doing, send me a message. More to come 🙂

XoXo

Dai 🙂

The topic of surrendering to my current state and reality, has been popping up daily. It’s as if the universe wants me to sit and process it… So here goes:

Yes, we have the ability to create our own reality but at the same time, if we are super attached to the outcome, we produce tension. Essentially, we are keeping ourselves trapped. Surrendering to the what IS NOW holds more power than we can even begin to imagine.

Today I pulled up into my driveway and sat in my car for 10 minutes in silence. I took a few deep breathes and just envisioned myself fully surrendering to my current reality: the stress, the busy hours, the issues at home, etc.. at the end of the day, we are never going to be “problem free” right? I visualized my life as this long road. To my left and to my right there were my obstacles but ALSO my blessings… I could see them intertwining like rose vines. As I looked at my long hours of work, I also saw the fruits of my labor crawling into it.. then I saw my personal home situations and quickly the feelings of strength, love, and unity enveloped it.. I know it’s not easy to make my vision super clear to everyone but I hope the concept is understood – All of the “bad” or uncomfortable things in our life are also creating the GOOD and beautiful. The more we surrender to the process and allow what comes to flow through us, the quicker we quantum leap into our desired realities.

Release the grip.. surrender to your life.. move THROUGH it not against it.. and then the calm will make you feel SO secure about where you are heading.

I hope this helps you to see why the good needs the bad and everything in between is just what we make of it..

XoXo

Dai 🙂

I heard this question today and it really sent me deep into thought. I’m sure I am not the only person who fears “losing it all”. This time last year, I was living a whirlwind of emotions being almost rock bottom emotionally and financially. I stopped fighting against the current and allowed faith in myself and my actions, to get me through it. Fast forward a year, and I am in a completely different place. Not only have I attained more internal strength, I also climbed up the financial ladder. Of course I have many more steps until I make it to the top, but I am in a place where I feel comfortable and secure. So with that said, a new fear has creeped up.. “what if I lose it all?”. I have brought up this question in therapy, in coaching calls, to my husband, to myself often, etc… Well, today while attending a coaching call with Antonina (lifewellmade on IG), she made me realize that no amount of material can make me enjoy the things that really make me happy, such as reading, writing, and nature. Whether I am in a big house or a little house.. whether I am the owning of a large successful business or a small failing business.. I still enjoy THOSE things. So why do we put this large elaborate picture around the things that make us happy? Yes I want a big house, yes I want a large successful business, but enjoying my “all” now is what life is about.

Today I learned that although losing all material possessions would hurt, it wouldn’t mean I lost it “all”. My family, my friends, my dogs, my love of reading and writing, the ability to see and witness beautiful sceneries while enjoying nature… that is my ALL.

What is your ALL?

XoXo,

Dai 🙂

What is a limiting belief? A limiting belief is something that has been felt or repeated enough times and/or with enough impact, that has become a part of your subconscious. When a limiting belief gets implanted into your subconscious, your CONSCIOUS self acts and believes that certain limitations are true. A limiting belief is a lie that has deeply rooted itself in your mind. This has been dragging you along as a passenger, while IT takes the driver seat!

Two months ago I was drowning in limiting beliefs. I had convinced myself that OUTSIDE sources were responsible for my financial situation, that I was powerless, and that some things were just “out of my hands”. Some limited beliefs that I have recently been working on clearing out of my subconscious:

• Money is a limited source
• Rich people are greedy
• More money more problems
• Money isn’t spiritual, poverty and sacrifice is (guilt)
• I can’t control my own wealth
• Money is not easily attained
• Money can solve all of your problems

How did I get all of these limiting beliefs (and much more) into my subconscious to the point where they turned into my reality? I began to analyze my early childhood. It is known that most of our limiting beliefs (about money or ANYTHING for that matter) are created between birth and 7 yrs old. Yes, a lot happens later in life which helps mold you into who you are, but before the age of 7 ideas literally get ABSORBED into your psyche like a freaking sponge! You may think you already know where everything stems from, but some journaling and meditating into your inner self, can give you straight forward answers and allow you to see things in a different light. As I looked back to my first 7 years of life I saw MANY reasons why I’ve been SO stuck with my limiting beliefs concerning money. I personally became aware that my inner child held onto these moments as “Reasons why money is difficult”:

1.) Living in Uruguay seeing poor kids begging for food while I had enough to eat, instilled GUILT in me – Having more = Guilt, sadness, greediness. Every time I’ve been on a “money high” I fall back down.. Could it be that I feel guilty and greedy?

2.) The memory if leaving so many family members at the airport crying, miserable, depressed when we moved to America – Having a better life = Sadness, losing loved ones, FEAR of the unknown. Am I scared to go into unknown territories in order to avoid losing love or security?

3.) Upon coming to America, I was the underdog. I didn’t have all of the same toys & clothes. Having less money = Not worth it, not good enough. Am I self sabotaging my financial situation because of this deep rooted concept of not being “good enough”?

4.) Seeing my father work 3 jobs, sacrifice everything, hustle day and night – Having more money only comes from HARD WORK. Did I create less money because sub consciously I didn’t want to work to that degree?

As I mentioned, I have been working hard on ridding myself of these limiting beliefs. Here is a list of NEW MONEY TRUTHS, which I have been reminding myself of daily and putting into practice:

• I have the capacity to have as much as I want
• The more I have, the more I can GIVE
• Money in my hand will make the world a better place
• Abundance is my natural birth right
• Wealth is created not earned
• I am worthy
• Money blesses me with more choices
• Money is ENERGY
• Money has no intelligence of it’s own to dictate my life
• Like oxygen, it can easily flow in just as much as it flows out

With that said, do you know the fastest way to rid yourself of limiting beliefs? I call them my dynamic duo: FORGIVENESS & GRATITUDE!

Once you forgive your past experiences, people, and self, you can move on and allow new positive thoughts to enter your sub conscious. I learned this from my mentor, Kathrin Zenkina. Alongside of forgiveness, you must also be grateful for everything in your current life. There is ALWAYS something to be grateful for. Wake up and think of what you are thankful for. Remind yourself during the day. Look at people and things around you with love. Go to bed feeling appreciative. It is honestly the most miraculous shift I have ever practiced in my life. Sounds like BS? Try it! Give yourself the benefit of the doubt and live in love of everything around you and I promise things will change!

Make lists.. Make a list of the OLD thoughts you want to dump, forgive them, and make a list of NEW thoughts you want to believe. Do this and find things to love daily, and you are headed in the right path.

OH, and who cares what others think about your process?! Judgement will be everywhere.. Fuck it! 🙂

XoXo

Dai

11 days ago I created a vision board and set some goals for myself for the month of October; you can refer back to my post “Thankful Thursday – The calm during the storm”. I am amazed at how much can be done and accomplished in 11 days.

My #1 goal was to attain a new customer. I did it! Although work hasn’t begun with them yet, just knowing that it’s in the work is making me feel so empowered. I see the possibility of attaining more customers in the near future also, which is such a great feeling! I have been stepping out of my comfort zone and must admit that doing so is paying off.

My vision board also included finding a direction towards what High school to enroll our daughter in (private or public). We attended 1 of 2 Open houses last weekend which I have to admit all 3 of us fell in love with.. and we have 1 more to go to next weekend. I feel confident that by the end of this month, we will have a much clearer picture of where to go.

The 4 books challenge hasn’t been as speedy as expected. I’ve been reading the same book for 11 days.. I think mostly because I enrolled in an online course which has been taking up a lot of time, but I plan on finishing it this weekend and sticking to my other 3.

Meditation has been a part of my daily routine whether its in the morning, afternoon, or night time.. also, it’s been short and sweet (between 5-10 minutes) but I’ve been sticking to it and hope to get better at it!

I also wanted to go to an Abraham Hicks workshop. These workshops are not cheap, and in my case, not local.. therefore, I also have to pay for a hotel. I questioned whether to fork out the money or not and my internal voice said, “Just do it! This is for a better you! This is an investment in yourself!” So I went ahead and bought 1 ticket and reserved a hotel room, to which I will be leaving to shortly (Greenwich, CT). I am looking forward to some quiet “me” time and truly soaking in the fact that I treated myself and allowed myself an experience which would have been put off or avoided in the past. Go me!

With that said, I will go get ready so I can set out to my little mini adventure! I can’t wait to spend 4 hrs in the same room as Abraham Hicks tomorrow! Will definitely make a follow-up post about everything I learned and experienced.

Have a blessed weekend!

XoXo

Dai

Today is October 7th, and I like the number 7, so I decided to whip up 7 lessons I learned this year:

1. Money does NOT buy happiness – Gratitude actually brings you happiness! It was when I felt my lowest & worst financially, that I found real happiness. SO crazy because I LOVE MONEY, but I was focusing on it all wrong. As soon as I saw what I have to be grateful for, I began to feel SO good about life.
2. You can be a good person and not get walked all over – I always felt I had to be 1 or the other. Nice or stern. Friendly or bitchy. It was when an employee showed me that time after time he took my forgiving character as weakness, that I realized I will choose to be nice but take no shit.
3. Happiness has a daily “to do” list – It’s very easy to let difficult moments take over if you don’t implement daily inner work into your routine. It’s actually therapeutic and not necessarily “work”, but it’s something that needs to be kept up with daily. Happiness is something you can only provide for yourself.. So, start the days with listing things you are grateful for, meditate, read positive books or affirmations, work on pushing away negative thoughts and changing them for positive ones, limit the amount of negative TV or Social media you follow.
4. Avoid energy vampires – There are certain people that will suck the life out of you IF YOU ALLOW THEM. It’s easy to allow them if your own vibration isn’t at it’s best. If someone doesn’t make you feel good or makes you feel gloomy every time you see or speak to them, then it’s not good for you to interact during moments when you are off as well. It’s OK to take care of your mental state and keep yourself at peace.
5. If you aren’t constantly trying to better yourself, you aren’t truly living – This was a big one for me. I’ve had to dig deep within me to really see all of my flaws. My God it’s scary when you realize all of the crap you had inside, making the ego rule. I had and still have quite a few things I need to work on, but it feels SO GOOD to commit to making myself a better person. People who feel like they don’t need to change or better themselves, aren’t letting all of the Universe’s resources into their world. Once you start, you feel complete amazement as to what’s out there for you to soak in and feel joy!
6. Self love is more important than anything – This is something I am still working on. I know it, I get the reasoning behind it, I completely agree with it, yet I have my moments where I completely sabotage myself. I never saw the meaning behind “you can only love someone as much as you love yourself” until recently.. Now I fully see how much love you can offer to others if you are full of love for yourself.. or the contrary, how much love you miss out on giving others due to your own lack of self worth. I know I will master this, I am in the works!
7. You have the power to accomplish anything you want – If you can imagine it, you can have it; the bottom line to the Law of Attraction. If you put all of your focus and positive faithful energy into your goals, YOU WILL ACHIEVE THEM. You must believe and detach yourself from the results. Real manifestations occur when you KNOW they will and then go about your days with a sense of gratitude.. not dwelling on that which you want.

As I re-read my 7 lessons that I was BLESSED with this past year, I just smile. I smile because I realize that they all sum up one great beautiful concept: The power is within ME!

Please share some lessons you have learned and how they have changed you 🙂

XoXo

Dai